The EKG

Feels strange sitting in this dark room watching the cardiologist preparing to do an EKG on Bob. Over a year ago, this was a very scary time and even though there's a little thought in the back of my mind daring me to play the "what if game", I turn that thought off and look at the screen. It's so strange getting to actually see my husband's heart beating. I watch as they move the 'wand' to different positions and notice lines being drawn and photos being taken. Then, they turn on the sound...and I can hear the beating of his heart...sounds so strong. I notice as I watch the screen there appears to be a flapping valve so I ask the doctor if that's the mitral valve? "Why, yes it is...How did you know?". Well, I use to have mitral valve prolapse, so I've seen a few...and I must say, his looks good. "You're all done Mr. Grey! We will call you if there's any abnormalities, but if not, you should have the report in two days!". He seems relieved and I must say, this is not what happened last time, so I'm grateful. He has to go back to work but as I'm driving home, I'm wondering what my heart looks like. I mean, not my natural heart, but my spiritual heart. Wouldn't it be great to have a machine to go to and instantly see some weak muscles or damaged muscles or scarring that could indicate a past heart attack? Then, the Great Physician prescribes what your heart needs (take two hundred milligrams of love every hour and 100 milligrams of patience as needed)! Then we do a follow-up to see if the medication is improving our heart and if not, up the milligrams? I want to let God who is my EKG (Everlasting Kind God) see my heart openly and fix what needs help. Let Him sand those rough edges off that surround my heart, and let Him sew (or sow) my valves with His love. Then, when we come lay our head upon His chest, listen to His heart of love, beating for His little ones, calling each of us to come...Be Still.