Taking The Good With The Bad

I'm wide awake here surviving one of the strangest days that involved all of my sisters. It's so strange how one thing said at the wrong moment can set off a course of craziness like none other. Today, the third daughter my mom had is 50 years old. That is what this entire situation is over...or shall I say the catalyst which began it. Miscommunication, false statements, slander, ulterior motives and dare I say, some mental issues made what could have been a great day to celebrate, another argument. It just breaks my heart. All of us played a part in it. Even I got my feelings hurt and fell to the temptation of standing up for myself, which never works, but I just fell. I should be use to being slandered by my younger sisters, but when I heard what I heard, my head was spinning and this was after I had given all I could give to help a sister feel better. So, where do we go from here? Prayer always brings comfort. God's word has never disappointed and the holy spirit settles so sweetly on my heart and in my heart. I so pray they could have this peace. The Lord shared that in this world, we will have troubles, but be of good cheer (or comfort) for Jesus overcame the world. If I could turn the clock back on the part I played ... I would. The dynamics of sister relationships I believe are some of the most misunderstood relationships there are. Those that do not have siblings won't understand this (my son has thanked me many times). Yet, here it is. Instead of the four of us standing together and forming a bond of love, we bite and devour each other with our words. We lie and slander and let venom come out of our mouths and tell who ever will listen these lies. Only God can fix this and I believe He will...it's just when will it stop? Or can it? Will it actually take standing over a grave to realize how senseless these arguments are? I pray not. All I know is I only care about what the Lord thinks of me and He knows the truth. I pray I never feel the need to vindicate myself again. I just want to please God, and I will never stop praying that my three sisters come to know His peace which surpasses all understanding. I pray we learn that before we speak, we ask ourselves, would we say this if the Lord was standing here? Lord,this is too big for me...I give it to you. Bless my sisters and soften their hearts. Fill us all with your love and love for each other. How can we love God, whom we haven't seen when we can't love each other who we have. And, I give you the glory for always making a way when there is none. In Jesus' name.