A New Adventure Walk

Hey Clay.....wanna go on an adventure walk with mommy? Seems like yesterday when my son and I first started these little adventure walks. He was probably six when we started walking around the new neighborhood we had just moved into and we loved walking and we loved adventures so every weekend I would ask him if he wanted to go on an adventure walk and we would find a block that we hadn't walked down before and look at the yards and cars and trees. Now he's 32 and he's going on a big adventure walk. An adventure walk to a new state, without me... I am so proud of my son achieving all of his goals he set out for himself. However, I had no idea when he first mentioned this move to me last week, that he would call today saying that his transfer went through and he's moving in four weeks. At first I was trying to maintain the upbeat, happy for you facad, but then the reality of not having lunch with him every week and shopping at farmers markets and the Buffalo Exchange sort of hit me and just when I was telling him how excited I am for him going on this adventure walk, my voice cracked and out came the wailing. The very thing I didn't want to do, I did. We've had some awesome things happening like the fact that his brother from another mother found him after 15 years and we're flying out to North Carolina in ten days to meet him at grandma's house. I mean it's been amazing for Clay and amazing for me getting to witness this with him. These are two huge adventures and they are good ones! I asked him to forgive me for being so selfish and self focused but when he said I was his only reason for not wanting to go, I had to woman up and help him figure out how to move there and how to get his cat there as well as selling his stuff. I mean he told me it's only a two and a half hour flight, so that's only one and a half hour more than it takes me to drive to his house, practically. So, I'm very proud and happy for my son. Afterall, life is full of adventure walks. Some are great, some are sad, but we grow through each of them. Then when the final adventure walk arrives, we will all be together and never be separated again. This is just a temporary walk here on earth, and as long as I'm walking with the Lord, I'm on a great path. So, a new adventure walk for me is starting in August when I begin a new career as a Para Professional as a teacher's aid in a high school. I've always wanted to do this so I understand how my son feels. All kinds of emotions, yet it's exciting. We will be ok. We will be more than ok. It'll just take some adjustments...a different pair of shoes....perhaps....